Friday, February 11, 2011
In 2011, I've decided things will change. I will no longer be a happy-go-lucky butterfly flitting from here to there with no purpose. Nope. I'll carve my own way and make things happen. What I can change, I will change. I'll have purpose, drive, determination...
...and January 31 happened, seeing me totally NOT making my first deadline of the year!
Talk of feeling like a failure. Berating oneself? I don't think you wanna hear how hard I was on my case. Yes, I had extraordinary circumstances, I had valid excuses, I had nothing to prove. Think I fell for that? No way! If I myself won't uphold my standards, cannot respect myself, how do I expect others to respect me?
So that's how, with 10 days' lateness, I have finished the WIP. Whoohoo! I would've gone 'Yay me!' but I don't deserve that. Yes, life happens, sh*t happens - we deal with it. Doesn't mean we wallow in self-pity though. A deadline is a deadline; a goal is a goal. You make it, whatever it takes!
With that thought in mind, I hit my weekend. :) Goal? Spend time with my family. My son and I have a movie date tomorrow (DVD. Sorry, but theatre tickets are not part of my budget!). Now I can give myself a break, because I made my destination. So far... My new journey begins again soon.
From Mauritius with love,